These last few weeks have been a whirlwind of family, visitors, tears, and tantrums.
Some days seem to be easier than others. Usually depending on Kaylee's mood.
While my parents were here, Ella's first days home, Kaylee was a nightmare. I began to see defiance and crabbiness in my daughter that I was not ready to see. I knew she was going to have a hard time, but I missed my sweet girl.
My brother's visit overlapped my parents' visit. The last few days that my parents were here I realized that part of the problem was that Kaylee was not getting any sleep. Ella was waking her up. So, to remedy this, Ella and I slept out on the couch during my brother's last few days here. Needless to say, my darling Kaylee was slowly coming back thanks to the much needed rest she was getting. Michael was able to see the delight that she usually is.
Adam went back to work yesterday. I am so overwhelmed at the thought of having the two girls by myself. Kaylee really wants to help, but her "helpfulness" is not so helpful. She loves Ella and kisses her about as much as I do I think. Ella does not like to be put down. My fault. I love to hold her. However, I cannot get anything done.
Going out by myself with the girls terrifies me. I remember when I first had Kaylee and thought it was so difficult to get out with her. Now I have to get two dressed, fed, and out the door. I will eventually take this task on, but I am just not ready yet. Maybe in a few weeks.
After two days on my own, I see that this is doable. It is still overwhelming at times thanks to my splendid hormones, but I see how it is possible to take care of two.
My next goal is to figure out how to take care of the two girls, myself, and the house. Good thing I don't have to add work to that mix for a while. Phew.
Joyful Moment of the Day: After Adam got home, Kaylee and I ran to Target. I got Kaylee and Ella matching Easter dresses. Yay!
Some days seem to be easier than others. Usually depending on Kaylee's mood.
While my parents were here, Ella's first days home, Kaylee was a nightmare. I began to see defiance and crabbiness in my daughter that I was not ready to see. I knew she was going to have a hard time, but I missed my sweet girl.
My brother's visit overlapped my parents' visit. The last few days that my parents were here I realized that part of the problem was that Kaylee was not getting any sleep. Ella was waking her up. So, to remedy this, Ella and I slept out on the couch during my brother's last few days here. Needless to say, my darling Kaylee was slowly coming back thanks to the much needed rest she was getting. Michael was able to see the delight that she usually is.
Adam went back to work yesterday. I am so overwhelmed at the thought of having the two girls by myself. Kaylee really wants to help, but her "helpfulness" is not so helpful. She loves Ella and kisses her about as much as I do I think. Ella does not like to be put down. My fault. I love to hold her. However, I cannot get anything done.
Going out by myself with the girls terrifies me. I remember when I first had Kaylee and thought it was so difficult to get out with her. Now I have to get two dressed, fed, and out the door. I will eventually take this task on, but I am just not ready yet. Maybe in a few weeks.
After two days on my own, I see that this is doable. It is still overwhelming at times thanks to my splendid hormones, but I see how it is possible to take care of two.
My next goal is to figure out how to take care of the two girls, myself, and the house. Good thing I don't have to add work to that mix for a while. Phew.
Can't wait to see the dresses! I'm sure they're adorable. Also, those harness/backpack leashes are ah.maze.ing. Absolutely helps with shopping and other various and sundry errand-running. Miss you!
ReplyDeleteThe Bjorn was my savior going out with my 2 those first few months... allows you to still have hands free! You can do it mama :)
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